Today is my 39th birthday and if I think back of the last five years, I felt a lot like Alice from Alice in Wonderland. I chased the white rabbit down a terrifying rabbit hole. As I fell, I lost my health, faith, friends, and even myself along the way. And it's not just the last five years of my life, it is all of my life that has been one great big fall down a rabbit hole. Now I am ready to share my story with you.